Tag: drained

ABYSMAL…

Posted on by delphinemusic in Agony, anguish, anxiety, autistic, Autistic Burnout, blackouts, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, CPTSD, despairing, disability, dismal, distressed, drained, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, healthcare, hospital, Illness & Depression, Mental Health, mentalhealth, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, sensoryoverload, Stamina & Energy, suprapubic catheter, Weather/Isobars

am SERIOUSLY PAYING for going out yesterday... Just a GODS-DAMNED HOSPITAL APPOINTMENT... But now I have to suffer for Days... (Weeks...?) for the Privilege of being able to Go To The Sodding Hospital. A day that started at 7am and didn't finish till ALL HOURS of the MORNING -- around 3am. For a 2pm appointment in a hospital that's over 20 miles away. So, that's what... 20 SHITTING HOURS of being UP and BEING ACTIVE and frankly Suffering, because ALL of it is NOT EASY Whatsoever.

STILL No Breathing Any Sigh Of Relief…

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, anxiety, ASD, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badday, badthings, badweather, CFS/ME, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, confused, CPTSD, despairing, devestated, disability, disassociation, dismal, distressed, disturbed, drained, drowningfeels, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, grief, helplessness, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, infection, inhell, irritated, long COVID, memories, Mental Health, mentalhealth, mixedfeels, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, sensoryoverload, stress, stressed, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, upset, vibratingscared, Weather/Isobars

ASPIRATED Morning Meds. Again. “As Usual”, now. Can't seem to not do this again. I am ALSO SO GODS-DAMNED EXHAUSTED actually am SERIOUSLY STRUGGLING coughing shit up now. .... With no Diaphragm.... There is very little I can do... SO STUPIDLY EXHAUSTED... Head is STILL POUNDING, STILL feeling Breathless... Had to take Ventolin because breathing couldn't Quite calm down... Pretty Sure I'm Starting A Chest Infection... More coughing, more gunk... and no relief…

EXHAUSTED

Posted on by delphinemusic in angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, badday, badthings, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, disability, disassociation, disaster, dismal, distressed, disturbed, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, furious, grief, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, independence, inhell, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, stress, vibratingscared

It's the Same Thing, Every Day, now. Sheer Exhaustion, Hyper-Anxiety, BlackOuts & ZoneOuts, one of my parents - or both - creating Immense Panic Attacks that sometimes, often, rise towards Meltdowns from the levels of Distress they cause and how I am [not] helped out of them...  Too Many Blackouts/Seizure thingies.... then Nightmares all night again...  … Continue reading EXHAUSTED →

RELENTLESS

Posted on by delphinemusic in angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badthings, badweather, Bioware, blackouts, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, devestated, disability, disassociation, disaster, dismal, distressed, disturbed, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, furious, Gaming, headache, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, lost, Mass Effect, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, numbness, onedge, overwhelmed, pain, panic, personalinsights, PTSD, ptsd, sad, selfawareness, sensoryoverload, spasms, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, terrified, tmi, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, weather, Weather/Isobars, weird

RELENTLESS | Blog | #Fibromyalgia, #HemiplegicMigraine, #VestibularMigraine, #LongCOVID are all Absolutely Wrecking Me PAIN, #Paresthesia, AGONY, #Exhaustion, #Fatigue, Fragile, Trembling, resulting in Depersonalisation & Disassociation...Overwhelming...

Damaging Dynamics – Fibro Flare-Up Supernova

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, Alexithymia, angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badday, badthings, badweather, blackouts, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, disability, disassociation, disaster, dismal, distressed, disturbed, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, grief, headache, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, independence, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, mobility problems, numbness, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, Resentment, sad, selfawareness, sensoryoverload, spasms, Stamina & Energy, storms, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, trauma, trauma, uncomfortable, upset, vibratingscared, weather, Weather/Isobars

Fibromyalgia, Long COVID, Autistic Burnout... Just Devastating, EXHAUSTING AGONY... I currently seem to have a Permanent Vestibular Migraine ingrained into my Brain. The Popping Candy PAIN & Paresthesia is Absolutely UNBEARABLE... It's So Overwhelming, it leaves me Literally & Physically Breathless... I am Sluggish, Overwhelmingly Fatigued, Bone-Deep Tired & Exhausted... And that's just after all I have done is get out of bed.

Fibro Bunny

Posted on by delphinemusic in anxiety, autistic, blackouts, CFS/ME, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, crushingfeels, despairing, disability, disassociation, distressed, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, healthcare, helplessness, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, inhell, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, numbness, onedge, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, sad, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, vibratingscared, weather, Weather/Isobars

This... SUPER DRAINED EXHAUSTION is Getting Seriously, Severely Out Of Hand. There's the Paresthesia Nightmare of PAIN. The Undiagnosed Long COVID that's making it impossible to even move. ... Seriously, I Just Don't Know how else to word this DEEP ... Empty & VOID inside of... Ability To Move Or Even Breathe without The Most Enormous Effort... Wasn't there before I got COVID and now it's just getting worse with each day and month that goes by...

Just To Do One Simple Thing…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, asd, Asperger, badweather, dismal, distressed, drained, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Isobars / Air-Pressure, weather, Weather/Isobars

Feels like Everything is in a Fugue... Isobars aren't being Fair, Whatsoever, playing some SERIOUS RollerCoastering as of late... And. WAY. Too. Much. -- Just Stress & Exhaustion & PURE UTTER CHAOS... WANT To DO Things... But Actually Can't -- Just in some kind of Dazed Haze, unable to Think Straight... Or even in a mildly … Continue reading Just To Do One Simple Thing… →

Unchargable Me

Posted on by delphinemusic in CFS/ME, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, disability, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, Ramblings

I really hate these flare-ups... Is it just Fibro, or is it more? I'm just so exhausted I can't think straight, or even at all, anymore. It makes me so ridiculously ill, so tired and drained, so unable to do anything, not function at all. I am lost inside it. Numb and dead inside with … Continue reading Unchargable Me →