Category: feelsick

Still Not Over

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, anxiety, autistic, blackouts, catheter, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, CPTSD, despairing, disability, distressed, Eating Disorders, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, helplessness, Illness & Depression, medication, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, nausea, pain, panic, PTSD, ptsd, Resentment, sad, scared, sensoryoverload, skittish, spasms, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, suprapubic catheter, terrified, tmi, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, upset, vibratingscared, waitingfordoom, Weather/Isobars

Aspirating Again… On Coffee this time… It's STILL Not Over… Guess the bottom line is that this Dysphagia is Never Going To Be Over… Is It?? Fibromyalgia DOESN'T Do This…. And it's getting WAY Too Scary, now. My body, my system, is Disintegrating before me, and there seems to be SO Little I can DO … Continue reading Still Not Over →

Hospitals & Dragons (of Disappointment)

Posted on by delphinemusic in accessiblebathroom, aggitated, Alexithymia, angry, anguish, anxiety, ASD, aspie, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badthings, badweather, bpd, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, disability, disassociation, disaster, distressed, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, frustration, furious, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, Mental Health, Stamina & Energy, stress, Weather/Isobars

OMAFG -- On What PLANET do the NHS think it's PROFESSIONAL to send an Appointment CANCELLATION -- and Rescheduling -- VIA GODS-DAMNED TEXT MESSAGE....???!! Is This Some New Utterly Thick NHS England ASSHAT Idea; "Saving Paper" or something - whatever?? ... Received Bad News from the Walton Centre Hospital for Lolli's Appointment …. That they … Continue reading Hospitals & Dragons (of Disappointment) →

Storm Agnes – More Destruction Than What’s Just Outside

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, anguish, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badthings, badweather, blackouts, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, CPTSD, despairing, devestated, disassociation, dismal, distressed, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, headache, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, Mental Health, mentalhealth, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, trauma, trauma, vibratingscared, weather, Weather/Isobars

These Days Are Very Dark. Bleak. Harsh, Helpless feels, all full of Hopelessness. I Question My Life... My Very Existence.And then... Storm Agnes Just Turns Up -- Out of Nowhere-- throwing me... Right Under The Bus. Struggling with brain-Fog & Exhaustion... The thought of having to do IMPORTANT things is literally making me Panic & feel physically sick with Overwhelming Anxiety & Thoughts of Hyper-Mega-Exhaustion from doing them. These Storms, the Weather &B Isobars in general Control my Fibro-Flareups - which, in turn, Controls Me.

Exhaustion Overload Unexplained

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badday, badthings, badweather, blackouts, CFS/ME, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, Diagnostics, disassociation, distressed, disturbed, drained, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, headache, healthcare, helplessness, Illness & Depression, Isobars / Air-Pressure, mentalhealth, miserable, nausea, numbness, onedge, overwhelmed, packing, pain, painkillers, paranoid, PTSD, ptsd, scared, selfawareness, sensoryoverload, Stamina & Energy, stress, suffocatingfeels, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, weather

Disorientated... All Morning, been Disorientated & Disassociated... And now I've finally realised I've got Vestibular [Migraine] Dizziness and a Thick Fugue & Haze around me - can't see things properly -- like there's a very delicate mist and I've put the wrong contact lenses in... Fibro-Flareup is Getting Worse, and it's REALLY Not Good to have to go through & endure... PAIN, Stiffness, Extra-numbness, Nausea, ZoneOuts, Exhaustion.... More.... All Making Things NOT GOOD TODAY.

EXHAUSTED

Posted on by delphinemusic in angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, badday, badthings, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, disability, disassociation, disaster, dismal, distressed, disturbed, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, furious, grief, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, independence, inhell, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, stress, vibratingscared

It's the Same Thing, Every Day, now. Sheer Exhaustion, Hyper-Anxiety, BlackOuts & ZoneOuts, one of my parents - or both - creating Immense Panic Attacks that sometimes, often, rise towards Meltdowns from the levels of Distress they cause and how I am [not] helped out of them...  Too Many Blackouts/Seizure thingies.... then Nightmares all night again...  … Continue reading EXHAUSTED →

The Nightmare That Never Ends….

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, anguish, anxiety, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badday, badthings, blackouts, catheter, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, disability, disassociation, dismal, distressed, drained, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, grief, helplessness, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, inhell, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, lost, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, numbness, overwhelmed, pain, panic, PTSD, ptsd, Resentment, sad, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, weather, Weather/Isobars

I am in a STUPID Amount of PAIN... ZONED OUT... Have Done NOTHING... And I am SO SO SO OUTRIGHT, DOWNRIGHT SICK OF THIS PRISON I am being kept in...I REALLY REALLY NEED TO KNOW WHERE THEY KEY IS -- SO I CAN GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE... (!) Checking through the current Forecasts … Continue reading The Nightmare That Never Ends…. →

RELENTLESS

Posted on by delphinemusic in angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badthings, badweather, Bioware, blackouts, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, devestated, disability, disassociation, disaster, dismal, distressed, disturbed, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, furious, Gaming, headache, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, lost, Mass Effect, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, numbness, onedge, overwhelmed, pain, panic, personalinsights, PTSD, ptsd, sad, selfawareness, sensoryoverload, spasms, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, terrified, tmi, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, weather, Weather/Isobars, weird

RELENTLESS | Blog | #Fibromyalgia, #HemiplegicMigraine, #VestibularMigraine, #LongCOVID are all Absolutely Wrecking Me PAIN, #Paresthesia, AGONY, #Exhaustion, #Fatigue, Fragile, Trembling, resulting in Depersonalisation & Disassociation...Overwhelming...

Damaging Dynamics – Fibro Flare-Up Supernova

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, Alexithymia, angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, Autistic Burnout, badday, badthings, badweather, blackouts, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, disability, disassociation, disaster, dismal, distressed, disturbed, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, grief, headache, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, independence, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, mobility problems, numbness, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, Resentment, sad, selfawareness, sensoryoverload, spasms, Stamina & Energy, storms, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, trauma, trauma, uncomfortable, upset, vibratingscared, weather, Weather/Isobars

Fibromyalgia, Long COVID, Autistic Burnout... Just Devastating, EXHAUSTING AGONY... I currently seem to have a Permanent Vestibular Migraine ingrained into my Brain. The Popping Candy PAIN & Paresthesia is Absolutely UNBEARABLE... It's So Overwhelming, it leaves me Literally & Physically Breathless... I am Sluggish, Overwhelmingly Fatigued, Bone-Deep Tired & Exhausted... And that's just after all I have done is get out of bed.