A Traumatised Mind…
in a Broken Body
&
Fibromyalgia-Fatigued Pain Warrior
I’m Just Me.
DelphineMusic
.a.k.a. LeliBug
• Geek • Goth • Gamer • Nerd • Coffeeholic •
• Techaholic • Unofficial Tech-Support •
• Unofficial Web Admin • PC Rig Builder
• [Former] IT Contractor Data Analyst •
• Writer • Blogger • Reader • CoverArt Creator •
• Artistic • Animal Lover • Autistic •
• Wiccan • Wheelchair Whizzer •
• Soprano-Trained Classical Singer •
• [Former] Singer-Songwriter •
• [Former] Musical Theatre & Cabaret Performer •
LIVING WITH
Severe Fibromyalgia • Chronic Pain •
Chronic Illness • Fatigue • Alexithymia • Asthma •
• Hemiplegic Migraine • Vestibular Migraine •
• Pompholyx (dyshidrotic eczema) •
• IBS • Suprapubic (SP) Catheter •
• Von Willebrand’s Disease • Complex Dysphagia •
• Long COVID •
• Psychological Illness • Depression • (C)PTSD • BPD •
• Agoraphobia • Social-Phobia • Hyper-Vigilance •
• Extreme Social Anxiety & Distress • Panic Attacks •
MAJOR AUTISTIC BURNOUT
So… Not Much, Really….(!)
Latest Blogs
More Aspirating, Less Functioning
FIRST TIME doing meds by myself and I ASPIRATED …. Lolli had to bang my back FOR AGES … and I THREW UP the Aspirated Coffee ALL OVER ME & the FRONT OF MY DRESS. Lasted at least 20 minutes – the Choking and the Coughing, and…
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Hospitals & Dragons (of Disappointment)
OMAFG — On What PLANET do the NHS think it’s PROFESSIONAL to send an Appointment CANCELLATION — and Rescheduling — VIA GODS-DAMNED TEXT MESSAGE….???!! Is This Some New Utterly Thick NHS England ASSHAT Idea; “Saving Paper” or something – whatever?? … Received Bad News…
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The Waking Nightmare
Been awake since 5:30am… Already over-exhausted and drained, barely getting out of bed. The Tendon is trying to come back. I Am Very Not OK – the “Vestibular Migraine Symptoms” are Ready & Rife, making me agitated, distressed, anxious, disengaged, disassociated. It’s horrible and…
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Storm Agnes – More Destruction Than What’s Just Outside
These Days Are Very Dark. Bleak. Harsh, Helpless feels, all full of Hopelessness. I Question My Life… My Very Existence.And then… Storm Agnes Just Turns Up — Out of Nowhere– throwing me… Right Under The Bus. Struggling with brain-Fog & Exhaustion… The thought of…
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Exhaustion Overload Unexplained
Disorientated… All Morning, been Disorientated & Disassociated… And now I’ve finally realised I’ve got Vestibular [Migraine] Dizziness and a Thick Fugue & Haze around me – can’t see things properly — like there’s a very delicate mist and I’ve put the wrong contact lenses…
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When Food Is Thine Enemy
Food is getting ridiculously difficult now… it’s 3 sammiches for dinner and can’t bring myself to eat it in 24 hours. It’s REALLY Not Good..
It’s 3 Sammiches, because they can be eaten at any time…
I used to have better food.…
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Where Do We Go From Here…?
I was just thinking a day or two ago how, like me, hundreds of thousands of lives were ticking along in some fashion… Then one Overwhelming Catastrophic Tsunami came crashing in on us Three and a Half Years Ago — one called COVID. …It…
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Small Ups & Crashing Downs
articularly Agitated & Shaky Today… BAD TREMOR is Doing My Head In… AND SERIOUSLY SCREWING WITH MY TYPING… IT’S SUPER ANNOYING and it’s DEFINITELY TO DO WITH THE DAMNED WEATHER… (!!!)…. BEING WAY TOO HOT IS WAY WAY TOO WRONG…
I managed to take…
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Sometimes It’s Just too Much To Manage With
I hate being me… And I REALLY hate NOT Being Me. My Existence is ridiculous, and I miss who I am, who I used to be able to be – which I can’t be anymore because other things happen instead that really don’t allow…
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