Tag: depressed

BETRAYED — BY CORONAVIRUS & NHS

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I go through this Crap-Ass Existence in as much silence as possible these days... It’s easier, because writing about it requires Processing that I cannot manage anymore — a fact which hurts me and depresses me, because I’ve always used writing to deal with things my entire life... BUT this time, I feel things have … Continue reading BETRAYED — BY CORONAVIRUS & NHS →

‘The NHS has been destroyed’: Boris Johnson confronted by father of sick child | Politics | The Guardian

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, angry, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, Diagnostics, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, grief, hospital, London, Mental Health, pain, Ramblings, Resentment, stress, trauma, trauma, upset

Man accuses PM of visiting Whipps Cross hospital in London for press opportunity — Read on http://www.theguardian.com/politics/2019/sep/18/nhs-destroyed-boris-johnson-father-sick-child-hospital-london Whips Cross Hospital is indeed a derelict pile of complete rubbish... Services cut to the bone, An ancient Victorian set of buildings falling apart at the seams, waiting lists too long... Has been under Special Measures yet has … Continue reading ‘The NHS has been destroyed’: Boris Johnson confronted by father of sick child | Politics | The Guardian →

Surviving Trauma with ASD

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, aspie, chaos, confused, despairing, dignity, disability, dragondisappointment, drained, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, Ramblings

My Story... My Life... The Second Time My World Imploded into PTSD... When I was 34, literally my entire world fell apart. I was so ill I couldn’t move and was in 24/7 agony from Fibromyalgia, and after 2 years of this illness and 10 years together, my partner snapped and she sent me home … Continue reading Surviving Trauma with ASD →

TMI

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, anxiety, ASD, chaos, Chronic Pain, despairing, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, frustration, helplessness, sensoryoverload, stressed, tmi

| 9°C | Overwhelmed. TMI'd up to the hilt. My Mind has been blown to pieces... and then those pieces have been blown up too.I can't even... You know, I am buzzing on the inside... I mean literally, like every cell has its own TENS machine or Thumper Wand. Too much everything. There's no time … Continue reading TMI →

A Different Physio Pain: When NTs Harm Without Consideration…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, disability, Fibromyalgia, Hemiplegic Migraine, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, stress

I went to physio. I wish I hadn't. Even though it was technically a "good session" — productive, challenging, effective... It was not a good experience.

Life In The Doo-Doo Lane…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, disability, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Ramblings, stress

Sometimes.... Just... No. It’s 12.21pm — Sitting in Table Table, heavy nausea in my tummy, not enough food or coffee anywhere near me, miserable because it’s my own fault I’m here right now, and wishing I was still stuffed in my bed, either awake or asleep. ... Adulting is Hard...! All my fault because, apparently, … Continue reading Life In The Doo-Doo Lane… →

Dear Chronic Illness/ Pain/Conditions Sufferer…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, asthma, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, disability, Eating Disorders, Fibromyalgia, Hemiplegic Migraine, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, Treatments

A Message For Anyone Who Is Suffering With Chronic Illness/Pain/Conditions... Especially Those Facing This (whether literally or emotionally) Alone...

Anxiety & Chaos — The Antithesis of the Aspie Mind…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, chronic illness, disability, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, Ramblings

Anxiety and Chaos rules my mind. It feels like it's been long buried under mountains of agonising pain, sorrow, grief. Fibro-Fog, medication, and more and more Chaos and Anxiety. I can feel my mind still there, calling, struggling to be freed, to be heard... yet, there seems to be so little I can do about digging it back out.