Category: Isolation

Black Heart Dying

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, angry, anguish, anxiety, autistic, badday, badthings, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, disability, disassociation, dismal, distressed, disturbed, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, frustration, furious, grief, headache, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, inhell, Isolation, lost, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, numbness, overwhelmed, panic, PTSD, ptsd, Resentment, scared, sensoryoverload, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, terrified, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, upset, vibratingscared, waitingfordoom

Screaming alone inside my head Grasping desperation till I'm dead Black fingers pouring threads of war From wounds that I can no longer ignore

🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿 FOR WALES — COMMUNITY MENTAL HEALTH HELPLINE 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, helplessness, imprisonedfeels, Isolation, lost, Mental Health, miserable, overwhelmed, panic, PTSD, ptsd, Ramblings, Resentment, sad, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, tmi, trauma, trauma, Treatments

C.A.L.L. Helpline is the Community Advice and Listening Line — a Freephone Helpline for people in Wales who need advice and support with their Mental Health... Not only this but they also have a texting option too.

“You Don’t Know What Damage You’ve Done…”

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, ASD, Asperger, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, despairing, disability, drowningfeels, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, Illness & Depression, Isolation, lost, Mental Health, mobility problems, PTSD, ptsd, Quotes, stress, suffocatingfeels, trauma, trauma

There Should Be No Shame... But... There. Is.  So. Much. Shame. I can’t work. I can’t breathe. I cannot seem to stop it running around in my head. Depression, Panic, Hopelessness, Despair... All claiming me. Claiming my attention. I cannot relax. I can’t even take a deep breath — both literally and figuratively. This idea has burned up my brain. Shaking, Shaken, Shame, Horror, Sickened … Continue reading “You Don’t Know What Damage You’ve Done…” →

A Different Physio Pain: When NTs Harm Without Consideration…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, disability, Fibromyalgia, Hemiplegic Migraine, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, stress

I went to physio. I wish I hadn't. Even though it was technically a "good session" — productive, challenging, effective... It was not a good experience.

Anniversary of Hell…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, chronic illness, disability, Fibromyalgia, hospital, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, Ramblings, stress

Tomorrow is the anniversary of when I first was taken into hospital... On the 28th January 2018, I was booked into the Premier Inn at Skelmersdale, to go to my niece's christening the next day. I ended up in hospital for six weeks instead...

Dear Chronic Illness/ Pain/Conditions Sufferer…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, asthma, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, disability, Eating Disorders, Fibromyalgia, Hemiplegic Migraine, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, Treatments

A Message For Anyone Who Is Suffering With Chronic Illness/Pain/Conditions... Especially Those Facing This (whether literally or emotionally) Alone...

Anxiety & Chaos — The Antithesis of the Aspie Mind…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, chronic illness, disability, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, Ramblings

Anxiety and Chaos rules my mind. It feels like it's been long buried under mountains of agonising pain, sorrow, grief. Fibro-Fog, medication, and more and more Chaos and Anxiety. I can feel my mind still there, calling, struggling to be freed, to be heard... yet, there seems to be so little I can do about digging it back out.

Does Nothing Ever Change…?

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, disability, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, pain, PIP & ESA, Ramblings, Weather/Isobars

I've been to hell and back. I think maybe I'm still there... but at least my life isn't on the line anymore. 27th January I got taken into hospital, half-conscious, and apparently in a bad way. They found streptococus and staphylococcus in my blood, along with a "horrendous" UTI and a bowel infection. I'm not quite sure … Continue reading Does Nothing Ever Change…? →