Tag: exhaustion

Under Intense [Air] Pressure from Rollercoaster Isobars

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, anguish, anxiety, autistic, badday, badthings, badweather, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, disaster, dismal, distressed, drained, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, healthcare, helplessness, Hemiplegic Migraine, imprisonedfeels, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, overwhelmed, PTSD, ptsd, Ramblings, sad, sepsis, Stamina & Energy, storms, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, terrified, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, vibratingscared, waitingfordoom, weather, Weather/Isobars

Fibromyalgia has narrowed my world in a way that nothing else ever has... Then it also got itself a "friend" -- Long COVID. Long COVID then went and got SEVERELY Exacerbated by Five Months of Hellish BURNOUT because of the STUPID Hospital's Treatment (or amazing lack thereof) of Lolli. Said BurnOut has rendered me... Entirely Non-Functional. In about as bad a condition as I was when I was battling SEPSIS.... But Then... Along Comes The Big Fibro Nemesis... The GODDAMNED WEATHER -- And the Rollercoaster Isobars thaat cause PAIN & Paresthesia like No Other to me.

Fibro Bunny

Posted on by delphinemusic in anxiety, autistic, blackouts, CFS/ME, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, crushingfeels, despairing, disability, disassociation, distressed, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, healthcare, helplessness, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, inhell, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, numbness, onedge, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, sad, Stamina & Energy, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, vibratingscared, weather, Weather/Isobars

This... SUPER DRAINED EXHAUSTION is Getting Seriously, Severely Out Of Hand. There's the Paresthesia Nightmare of PAIN. The Undiagnosed Long COVID that's making it impossible to even move. ... Seriously, I Just Don't Know how else to word this DEEP ... Empty & VOID inside of... Ability To Move Or Even Breathe without The Most Enormous Effort... Wasn't there before I got COVID and now it's just getting worse with each day and month that goes by...

Coming & Going…

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, anguish, anxiety, ASD, asd, Asperger, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, CPTSD, disability, distressed, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, grief, helplessness, hospital, Illness & Depression, independence, irritated, medication, Mental Health, miserable, mobility problems, morphine, Outings, overwhelmed, packing, pain, premierinn, PTSD, ptsd, stress, stressed, Wheelchair & Mobility Accessories

...ONE Night to a Premier Inn... For a Hospital appointment for L. I mean -- It Should Have Been Simple... Right??

Fibro FlareUps & Clueless Weather

Posted on by delphinemusic in Agony, badweather, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, Illness & Depression, Isobars / Air-Pressure, mixedfeels, overwhelmed, pain, painsomnia, personalinsights, uncertainty, uncomfortable, weather, Weather/Isobars, weird

Isobars Are Hitting Again... More RollerCoaster Disasters Coming Right Up... Whilst The Weather & Air Pressure Fail To Decide On What In All Hell's Name They're Going To Do Next... (We know it as "Springtime"... But apparently the Weather Gods are, Quite Frankly, Utterly Clueless... Clearly...) Feel like I got Run Over by a Tank, … Continue reading Fibro FlareUps & Clueless Weather →

Painsomnia

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, Alexithymia, anguish, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, aspie, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, confused, despairing, dismal, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, helplessness, Hemiplegic Migraine, imprisonedfeels, Isobars / Air-Pressure, lost, Mental Health, miserable, stress, stressed, upset, weather, Weather/Isobars

For days... weeks(?)... I’ve been unable to say words in writing. My head aches at the mere thought of making sense of my Feels enough to attach actual words to them...

JUNE 2019 — Daily Mood Chart • Disturbingly Not Good… 😔

Posted on by delphinemusic in anxiety, despairing, dragondisappointment, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, overwhelmed, panic, Ramblings

I use Dailyo diary and mood tracking app for this: https://www.daylio.net This just about says it all... 😞😖😢 When you are going through it, it's bad enough... But to see it like this... You really do get to see "in black and white" as it were... It was terrible to go through. It was a … Continue reading JUNE 2019 — Daily Mood Chart • Disturbingly Not Good… 😔 →

TMI

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, anxiety, ASD, chaos, Chronic Pain, despairing, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, frustration, helplessness, sensoryoverload, stressed, tmi

| 9°C | Overwhelmed. TMI'd up to the hilt. My Mind has been blown to pieces... and then those pieces have been blown up too.I can't even... You know, I am buzzing on the inside... I mean literally, like every cell has its own TENS machine or Thumper Wand. Too much everything. There's no time … Continue reading TMI →

A Futile Fibro Flare-Up Day…

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, aspie, catheter, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, despairing, disability, dismal, dragondisappointment, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, Gaming, healthcare, helplessness, Illness & Depression, Isobars / Air-Pressure, lost, Mental Health, miserable, pain, sad, Skyrim, stress, weather

I’m in no shape of, or for, anything. Done naught but a few words in Daylio and Jouney Journal, then blindly and mindlessly poking around the internet a little... It’s horrible outside. Cold, rainy, high Humidity. The isobars are decent-ish at 1016mb. I’m so cold... But I can’t move, and in too much pain to do anything about it...