Tag: asperger syndrome

I WISH.com They Would Make It EASY!!

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Their Returns System is Horribly Convoluted, Senseless, Difficult. I am MEGA Fatigued after gruelling WEEKS of BAD Fibro-FlareUp... I have PAIN, Brain / Fibro Fog & a Head full of Cotton Balls... I am actually Blacking Out from the Exhaustion & Pain I ALREADY HAVE... and NOW I have to... Manage. This. ....?? Fibromyalgia Cares NOT for Stupid & Ridiculous RETURNS Systems...!! And. YET.....

IS It Worth It…??

Posted on by delphinemusic in chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, CPTSD, distressed, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, Illness & Depression, pain, PTSD, ptsd, stress, stressed, trauma, trauma

BAD Headache... Neck Hurts... Achey... Quite A Bit Shakey... Feeling Horrid in General... Bloated tummy... Nauseated... Feels More Like A Hangover (or what is expect one to be like)... I Am SERIOUSLY Shaking & REALY Weak… I Can Barely Move… My Head Is POUNDING… And I’m Going More Hot & Cold Like A MEGA Messed-Up Shower… This … Continue reading IS It Worth It…?? →

The Auti & The Dentist: SO – No Emergency NHS Direct or Dentistry in North Wales…??

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Right... So my face exploded - for the second time - with an abscess on a broken tooth. It's in the middle-ish of my lower left jaw bone. Literally overnight (it wasn't like this yesterday!), this time, it sprang up and doubled in size; this thing is a Monster that's already made me look somewhat … Continue reading The Auti & The Dentist: SO – No Emergency NHS Direct or Dentistry in North Wales…?? →

BETRAYED — BY CORONAVIRUS & NHS

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I go through this Crap-Ass Existence in as much silence as possible these days... It’s easier, because writing about it requires Processing that I cannot manage anymore — a fact which hurts me and depresses me, because I’ve always used writing to deal with things my entire life... BUT this time, I feel things have … Continue reading BETRAYED — BY CORONAVIRUS & NHS →

Changes…

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, anguish, anxiety, ASD, asd, Asperger, bpd, chronic illness, confused, despairing, devestated, disassociation, dismal, distressed, disturbed, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, frustration, grief, Mental Health, miserable, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, stress, stressed, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset

 | 14°C | Brain so traumatised flashbacks are so very easy to trigger... So many things inside my head, burning it, terrorising it. Living with horrors, with so much actual real physical agony pain, the agony of emotions & Feels, I can't help the Symptoms of Trauma coming back to haunt me... 😢😣😔 The  chaos, … Continue reading Changes… →

Borderline Personality Curiosity…

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, anguish, anxiety, ASD, bpd, confused, crushingfeels, disassociation, distressed, disturbed, drained, drowningfeels, exhaustion, fatigue, frustration, helplessness, overwhelmed, panic, personalinsights, pictures, researching, sad, selfawareness, suffocatingfeels, tmi, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, weird

| 23°C | I Still Can’t Quite Process This... Borderline Personality Disorder It is Imperative to know... However... ASD, Alexithymia, perhaps even BDP Itself, disallows me to be able to manage to process anything about knowing it, understanding it, or thinking about progressively accepting & researching this... Well... No there’s problem Accepting it... It explains everything OTT inside me that ASD just … Continue reading Borderline Personality Curiosity… →

Surviving Trauma with ASD

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, aspie, chaos, confused, despairing, dignity, disability, dragondisappointment, drained, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, Ramblings

My Story... My Life... The Second Time My World Imploded into PTSD... When I was 34, literally my entire world fell apart. I was so ill I couldn’t move and was in 24/7 agony from Fibromyalgia, and after 2 years of this illness and 10 years together, my partner snapped and she sent me home … Continue reading Surviving Trauma with ASD →

JUNE 2019 — Daily Mood Chart • Disturbingly Not Good… 😔

Posted on by delphinemusic in anxiety, despairing, dragondisappointment, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, overwhelmed, panic, Ramblings

I use Dailyo diary and mood tracking app for this: https://www.daylio.net This just about says it all... 😞😖😢 When you are going through it, it's bad enough... But to see it like this... You really do get to see "in black and white" as it were... It was terrible to go through. It was a … Continue reading JUNE 2019 — Daily Mood Chart • Disturbingly Not Good… 😔 →