Tag: trauma

Enduring The Days… The Relentless, Endless Days

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Unable to eat, my Fibro FlareUp is SUPERNOVA… Enough that I keep Blacking Out from the PAIN… AFTER A HORRIBLE, TORTUOUS NIGHT & MORNING OF PANIC ATTACKS….. I now find out the Lead on my charging box by bed has failed. The USB plus directly in the baby plug TOWER isn’t working. Can’t get at … Continue reading Enduring The Days… The Relentless, Endless Days →

FREAKING FRACKING FINALLY… HAPPY. NEW. YEAR!!

Posted on by delphinemusic in anniversary, Ramblings

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

SEPSIS Poster Outlining Symptoms of SEPSIS from The UK Sepsis Trust

So, Apparently A&E Can’t Tell That Someone Who’s Screaming In Pain & Vomiting Continuously… IS. SERIOUSLY. ILL.

Posted on by delphinemusic in Agony, angry, anguish, anxiety, ASD, autistic, badthings, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, dignity, disability, disaster, distressed, disturbed, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, frustration, furious, healthcare, helplessness, hospital, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, independence, infection, inhell, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, nausea, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, ptsd, sensoryoverload, sepsis, spasms, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, terrified, tmi, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, upset, vibratingscared, waitingfordoom

Hospital A&E COMPLETELY Ignored the Screaming Pain &; Continuous Vomiting from one Patient in the Waiting Room - A Vulnerable Adult, with Complex Medical Conditions, with Physical & Learning Disabilities, severe back and spine complications, and Mobility Problems. We were there because the GP had been concerned enough to allow a house-call. Said GP had been SO Concerned about The Patient, she immediately took One Look at them and said in No Uncertain Terms - You Need To Get To The Hospital!

HOW Do You Fit In Other Things When You’re Busy Being Ill…?

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, angry, anguish, ASD, asd, Asperger, aspie, autistic, badday, badthings, caredfor, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, concerned, confused, CPTSD, crushingfeels, despairing, devestated, dignity, disability, disaster, dismal, distressed, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, frustration, healthcare, helplessness, hypervigilance, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, independence, inhell, irritated, lost, miserable, mobility problems, onedge, overwhelmed, ptsd, Resentment, selfawareness, selfcare, sensoryoverload, tmi, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, upset

Being Chronically Ill is, basically, not only having the Worst Paid Job EVER…But being stuck with it as — and as literally it gets — a life-long career, with Zero Ability of Getting Out…

All Wound Up And Nowhere For It To Go…

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, anxiety, ASD, autistic, CPTSD, devestated, dignity, disability, distressed, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Gaming, healthcare, Illness & Depression, irritated, lost, Mass Effect, Mental Health, mentalhealth, PTSD, ptsd, stress, stressed, suffocatingfeels, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset, waitingfordoom

Agitated and Jumping Inside like a Mexican Bean... Can't Settle -- no matter HOW Much I seem to want to... and obviously the MORE I WANT To ... The More Agitated=Jumping Bean I get.... (GAH!!!!!!!) ...

Incontinence Interference

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Being Incontinent... Is Not An Easy Thing To Deal With. You Certainly Do Not Expect To Need Anything Before You're Even 40.... I mean — Basically, from the day you’re Successfully potty-trained in infancy, you definitely do NOT expect to be Back in Nappies by the time you're... 35.

Being Literally Pointless…

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, anguish, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, confused, CPTSD, despairing, devestated, dignity, disability, disassociation, dismal, distressed, disturbed, dragondisappointment, drowningfeels, fatigue, feelsick, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, grief, helplessness, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, independence, inhell, Mental Health, mentalhealth, miserable, numbness, overwhelmed, personalinsights, PTSD, ptsd, Resentment, sad, scared, selfawareness, stressed, suffocatingfeels, terrified, trauma, trauma

Here I am, Again... Hollow & Numbed... Wondering.... HOW are you supposed to Deal With that sickening feeling that you're Absolutely NOTHING MORE than a sack of potatoes that's good for doing Nothing More Than turning Oxygen into Carbon Dioxide...?? The overwhelming... Shame... The Intense. Hollow. Nothingness... of being Utterly, Completely USELESS... Of being nothing … Continue reading Being Literally Pointless… →

Changes…

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Alexithymia, anguish, anxiety, ASD, asd, Asperger, bpd, chronic illness, confused, despairing, devestated, disassociation, dismal, distressed, disturbed, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, frustration, grief, Mental Health, miserable, overwhelmed, pain, PTSD, stress, stressed, trauma, trauma, uncertainty, uncomfortable, upset

 | 14°C | Brain so traumatised flashbacks are so very easy to trigger... So many things inside my head, burning it, terrorising it. Living with horrors, with so much actual real physical agony pain, the agony of emotions & Feels, I can't help the Symptoms of Trauma coming back to haunt me... 😢😣😔 The  chaos, … Continue reading Changes… →