Tag: isolation

Surviving Trauma with ASD

Posted on by delphinemusic in Alexithymia, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, aspie, chaos, confused, despairing, dignity, disability, dragondisappointment, drained, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, frustration, Ramblings

My Story... My Life... The Second Time My World Imploded into PTSD... When I was 34, literally my entire world fell apart. I was so ill I couldn’t move and was in 24/7 agony from Fibromyalgia, and after 2 years of this illness and 10 years together, my partner snapped and she sent me home … Continue reading Surviving Trauma with ASD →

TMI

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, anxiety, ASD, chaos, Chronic Pain, despairing, dragondisappointment, drained, drowningfeels, exasperation, exhaustion, fatigue, frustration, helplessness, sensoryoverload, stressed, tmi

| 9°C | Overwhelmed. TMI'd up to the hilt. My Mind has been blown to pieces... and then those pieces have been blown up too.I can't even... You know, I am buzzing on the inside... I mean literally, like every cell has its own TENS machine or Thumper Wand. Too much everything. There's no time … Continue reading TMI →

Anniversary of Hell…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, chronic illness, disability, Fibromyalgia, hospital, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, Ramblings, stress

Tomorrow is the anniversary of when I first was taken into hospital... On the 28th January 2018, I was booked into the Premier Inn at Skelmersdale, to go to my niece's christening the next day. I ended up in hospital for six weeks instead...

Dear Chronic Illness/ Pain/Conditions Sufferer…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, asthma, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, disability, Eating Disorders, Fibromyalgia, Hemiplegic Migraine, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, Treatments

A Message For Anyone Who Is Suffering With Chronic Illness/Pain/Conditions... Especially Those Facing This (whether literally or emotionally) Alone...

Anxiety & Chaos — The Antithesis of the Aspie Mind…

Posted on by delphinemusic in ASD, Asperger, chronic illness, disability, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, mobility problems, Ramblings

Anxiety and Chaos rules my mind. It feels like it's been long buried under mountains of agonising pain, sorrow, grief. Fibro-Fog, medication, and more and more Chaos and Anxiety. I can feel my mind still there, calling, struggling to be freed, to be heard... yet, there seems to be so little I can do about digging it back out.

All Pain, No Gain?

Posted on by delphinemusic in Asperger, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, pain, Ramblings

It's easy to believe - too easy sometimes - that the actual entire universe is against you no mattter what you do. In fact, the more good you try and do, the more it punches you back in the face. Perhaps this is especially true if you're already struggling, and you just want that one … Continue reading All Pain, No Gain? →

Keep Sane… Keep Going…

Posted on by delphinemusic in Asperger, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Isolation, Mental Health, pain, Ramblings

I would have expected that after more than two and a half years I might be used to this by now... the pain, the exhaustion, the enormously excessive fatigue, the lack of mobility, lack of focus, lack of concentration, lack of my usual ability to fixate obsessively... but I am not. I find that I … Continue reading Keep Sane… Keep Going… →

Wonderland

Posted on by delphinemusic in Asperger, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Illness & Depression, Mental Health, pain, Ramblings

Annie sang about "Tomorrow". Everyone talks about "Tomorrow". Everybody waits for "Tomorrow". It's "only a day away"... Right? But what if tomorrow never comes? And if you think is has, it's probably just an illusion. One that shatters really easily as soon as you let your guard down. When you're vulnerable to attack. I thought … Continue reading Wonderland →