Does Nothing Ever Change…?

I've been to hell and back. I think maybe I'm still there... but at least my life isn't on the line anymore. 27th January I got taken into hospital, half-conscious, and apparently in a bad way. They found streptococus and staphylococcus in my blood, along with a "horrendous" UTI and a bowel infection. I'm not quite sure …

In The End… Goodbye, Good Riddance, to 2017…

It's New Year's Eve. The end of 2017... And I'm definitely glad to see it go. This last year has been the year from Hell itself. It started with agony that could not be compared. With my starting to lose the ability to walk at all. With my losing the ability to crawl up the stairs. …

The Tribunal Dilema

My PIP "mandatory reconsideration" was a few weeks back now. Ever since I've struggled with extreme pain, illness and stress. There have been two huge storms. My niece was born prematurely. I've been under such enormous stress from all angles, I've just broken down. I'm being tested for CFS/ME. My Hemiplegic (and normal) Migraine is …

Oh. Dead. Lord… I’m Surrounded By Idiots…!! 😣😱😤

I just don't know what to think. Or how to properly identify or deal with these feelings... Incensed? Angry? Horrified? Hurt? Sad? Violated? Victimised? Traumatised? Grief-Stricken? ... Who knows...? I certainly don't. The PIP Fiasco Continues still... I read the full case notes the unebelivably horrible woman I saw at PIP wrote... and it's vile. …

Please Make The Stupid People Go Away… (The PIP Fiasco Continues…)

It's come to the point of I'm getting scared of what's going to happen to me next. How much the people out there who are supposed to help you are not only just going to ignore you, but they're going to kick you in the nuts when you're down, too. With Jibgle Bells on their …

Sunrays Through The Clouds…

PIP Day. It went pretty well, to be honest... which has shocked me no end. I felt confident going in, the day was lovely, isobars were right up at 1025mb, temperature around 23ºC, I got there early... Everything executed astoundingly well. We got a little lost, because it's in a weird place by the Menai …

Getting Ready for PIP… Again…

It's the day before PIP: Take Two... I was nerve-wracked before, but now I'm just mad. My 2 large packets of paperwork are ready. I have everything I can think of set – frankly still basically in place since last week – and I'm ready to be irritated and bored by an inebriated idiot who …

Reflex Runaway…

Coped with today by running away to Liverpool for the day. How else does anyone cope with what happened?? I was in a tizz, all over the place, unable to cope, or even process, what just happened when that guy called to tell me the appointment had been cancelled and rescheduled... So my mother took …