Agitated and Jumping Inside like a Mexican Bean… Can’t Settle — no matter HOW Much I seem to want to… and obviously the MORE I WANT To … The More Agitated=Jumping Bean I get…. (GAH!!!!!!!) …
I Really HATE This Part Of Me & My Body… Especially when you ADD that to PAIN & Hyper-Vigilance….
Feel like trying a New Game…. and Utterly, Genuinely TERRIFIED (No Joke) that SOMETHING and/or SOMEONE Will Absolutely Come and Screw It Up UTTERLY, ROYALLY, IMMEIDATELY RIGHT AWAY….
.q…THIS is called Trauma… And. It. FREAKING. HURTS – Inside & Out…(!)… It Is HORRIBLE…
It’s REALLY NOT OK To DO This To People – to DO Things to them that CAUSES This & Leaves Them Like THIS — All Vibrating & Nerves with Hyper-Vigilance, Anxiety, FEAR…?!?
This is really, really like ADDING to my WRONGS Inside… A Horrible Life-Limiting DEBILITATING & DAMAGING Catch 22 😭😢
