Tag: non-functioning

Sometimes It’s Just too Much To Manage With

Posted on by delphinemusic in anxiety, autistic, badweather, blackouts, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, distressed, Eating Disorders, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, Illness & Depression, Isobars / Air-Pressure, long COVID, Mental Health, Stamina & Energy, stress, weather, Weather/Isobars

I hate being me... And I REALLY hate NOT Being Me. My Existence is ridiculous, and I miss who I am, who I used to be able to be - which I can't be anymore because other things happen instead that really don't allow for it... What happens now is pretty much nothing to do with me anymore -- I don't get a say in much, especially when it comes to my body and whatever the hell it's doing at any one time. Another percentage is how other people are impacting me, and making my body go Wackadoodle-Dandy...

The Nightmare of Nightmares, Hemiplegia & Grinding Teeth

Posted on by delphinemusic in aggitated, Agony, anguish, anxiety, ASD, asd, autistic, badthings, badweather, chaos, chronic illness, Chronic Pain, Chronic Paraesthesia, concerned, confused, crushingfeels, disability, dismal, distressed, disturbed, drained, drowningfeels, exhaustion, fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Fibroplegia, headache, healthcare, helplessness, Hemiplegia Attack, Hemiplegic Migraine, Illness & Depression, imprisonedfeels, Isobars / Air-Pressure, mobility problems, morphine, overwhelmed, pain, painkillers, painsomnia, Ramblings, sensoryoverload, spasms, stress, stressed, tmi, uncomfortable, upset, weather, Weather/Isobars

[So] after Suffering Awful Nightmares through the night, I've then been Grinding my Teeth SO HARD, meaning that now -- the Right Side of my Jaw is ABSOLUTLY KILLING ME... I think it's entirely DISTRUPTED the Neuropathy in there -- So It UTTERLY, OVERWHELMINGLY, DEVESTATINGLY HURTS It's AGONY... ... I'm also starting to Get Concerned & wonder if those Nerves are being DAMAGED IRREPRABLY from it happening REALLY FREQUENTLY again...  I was SO Exhausted last night, I Wiped OUT at 12:30am -- This was after Three Days Straight of Zero Sleep Throughout The Entire Night. That's what you get when Weird-Ass Weather, Stress & High Anxiety (especially the weather at this point) comes & Kicks You All The Way Down The Huge Mountain of Horrible You Are On... Otherwise Known As A Fibro-FlareUp & The Consequences Thereof.