Coped with today by running away to Liverpool for the day.
How else does anyone cope with what happened?? I was in a tizz, all over the place, unable to cope, or even process, what just happened when that guy called to tell me the appointment had been cancelled and rescheduled… So my mother took me to Liverpool.
It’s a comfort zone for me – the closest I can get to feeling like I’m “home” without actually going all the way to London… I’m a City Mouse, and speciafically a London Mouse. I am lost without it. going to Liverpool is the closest I can get to it, and because its almost as familiar and comforting to me as London is, and has been a place of great comfort since I was a youngster, it was a sensible place to abscond to today.
This was the first time I had been out on a rather long excursion with my new chariot. She’s called Firefly, by the way… After the ship on the show of the same name. It did not start off well , but when we did finally manage to make it to the L1, it went Ok – until we had to leave, of course…
Liverpool city centre and the L1 is pretty wheelchair/ mobility friendly, and it was so easy to wheel around there in my new chair. I mainly went to Superdrug (I desperately need to dye my hair and needed hair dye…!), where I got some great lipstick shades from Maybeline, and to Lush to get my favourite healing foundation, Jackie Oates, and the most amazing shower gel, It’s Raining Men.
After a few minutes of looking at phones for my mother at Carphone Warhouse, we then head back to the L1 to meet with my sister. She’s not feeling too clever, at around five months pregnant and it’s maybe 20ºc outside… So she’s feeling the weight and size of the little Kitten inside her, bless her. We end up going to Pizza Express and eating there. I had gluten free vegan pizza (including artichokes, asparagus, red onion, and vegan cheese – it was so nice!) and a small glass of wine to help with the buzzing in my hands.
The weather was glorious, it was nice there, my sister was there, I was eating food in a restaurant that wasn’t going to half-kill me, and finally something good was happening on this day…!
Now all of that was a nice time. Then it all went weird again when we went back to the car and my mother attempted to pay. The machines wouldn’t work, and it took ages to get it sorted. By this time it was 19:43 on my phone, and the place closed at 8:00pm.
Then when we got out we ended up going to wrong way, and eventually went back home via Speke (and John Lennon airport, where I saw no planes! 😲🙄) and Runcorn. On the journey, mam selected a way home I wasn’t comfortable with, so I got very aggitated, because of the state I was in, and I couldn’t stop being tizzy about the PIP appointment. It was now once again hanging over my head at a time it was supposed to have been over with and aggravating just about everything.
By the time I got home, I was in quite an aggitated state. After a couple of big panic attacks, and readjusting to being home, I decided to do my dance DVD to burn the anxiety of. Smile and Sway is a pretty fun DVD and it’s good for burning off steam whilst enjoying some good dancing, and interesting, fun moves. I felt better after doing this, and that was when I finally managed to get upstairs in a better mood, ready for tomorrow.
The physio is coming tomorrow (again). Apparently, they’re supposed to have some kind of “plan”… I don’t know what kind, or what I’ll be expected to do. Hopefully, I’ll also have a shower, so on Friday I can dye my hair (whilst watching the Wimbledon Men’s Finals as it’s brewing….!) – but we’ll have to see. What I do hope is there’s going to be something I can do to my legs, which just can’t move on their own, so they’re missing out on so much – it’s not like they can yoga and dance like the could do. And they miss it.
Hopefully, I’ll be up for it and be able to make the most of whatever she says I should to.
So, overall, it turned out pretty OK in the end… But it certainly wasn’t an easy one – and I’m so glad it’s over with now!